MasterShake
Registered User
Brethren,
I have been struggling with PTSD for quite a while now, due to my 12 years in Public Safety. Things have gotten particularly bad the last few weeks, especially around Christmas. I drank rather heavily on Christmas since I was home alone. Then having an even worse day on Tuesday, I proceeded to drink heavily again..
The events of that evening went from bad to worse, as is often the case with depression and alcohol. I drove home and I drove recklessly. I lost control of the vehicle as was bound to happen and totaled it, taking out a rather large tree in the process. I was actually quite disappointed that I survived, as bad as that sounds. I walked away with minor injuries, but am now looking at my first DUI, and rightfully so.
This brings a whole new level of stress to my life. A DUI charge would effectively end my Public Safety career and put me out of a job and most likely my home. I also feel that this is most definitely conduct unbecoming of a Mason. I want to tell my lodge, but Masonry has been the only thing that has given me any sort of light in these dark times in my life. Any guidance would be greatly appreciated.
I have been struggling with PTSD for quite a while now, due to my 12 years in Public Safety. Things have gotten particularly bad the last few weeks, especially around Christmas. I drank rather heavily on Christmas since I was home alone. Then having an even worse day on Tuesday, I proceeded to drink heavily again..
The events of that evening went from bad to worse, as is often the case with depression and alcohol. I drove home and I drove recklessly. I lost control of the vehicle as was bound to happen and totaled it, taking out a rather large tree in the process. I was actually quite disappointed that I survived, as bad as that sounds. I walked away with minor injuries, but am now looking at my first DUI, and rightfully so.
This brings a whole new level of stress to my life. A DUI charge would effectively end my Public Safety career and put me out of a job and most likely my home. I also feel that this is most definitely conduct unbecoming of a Mason. I want to tell my lodge, but Masonry has been the only thing that has given me any sort of light in these dark times in my life. Any guidance would be greatly appreciated.