Have you considered counseling?
It's not such a dumb response.
Sounds like there is something going on to have such a strong emotional reaction.
Can I tell you a story ? Many years ago I lived in a shared house of 3 men. One had a GF who he purchased a puppy for. She was terrible at training it "it's to little and doesn't understand" while it deposited faeces on the lounge and kitchen floor, chewed things and generally ran amok. My view and experience was the sooner you train an animal the better. I hated that puppy and one day alone in the house started yelling at it. Quite out of character. I caught myself. Whoa.. In my hate and frustration I realised I was hating it simply for being what it was. Simply for being there. And I realised, wow... this must be what racism is all about - irrational hate on sight. A great insight. I ended up adopting the puppy. I'd trained another dog to competition level, and the mutt became a near constant companion to me. They even offered to give her to me when they moved out "It's your dog" they'd said, but I was not in a position to do that. Over 15 years on, I still remember that moment when I was yelling. I understood why and changed my environment, the dog, household, and myself.
Sounds like there is something going on with you bro... or maybe, being a policeman, you're in contact with folk worthy of hate, but what will it do to your soul over time ?
"I shall allow no man to belittle my
soul by making me
hate him." - Booker T. Washington
"Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured." - Mark Twain
Hating people is like burning down your own house to get rid of a rat. ~Henry Emerson Fosdick
The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less. ~Eldridge Cleaver,
Soul on Ice, 1968
(I was looking for a quote I cant find... I hate that
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