I'm struggling. I'm a 24 yo college student who took some time off of classes to work and pursue Masonic education. Losing the work I had necessitated me to go back to college part-time and also find part-time work. For another reason I wouldn't like to disclose publicly I can't seem to get any work at all.. I have asked and pleaded with a number of brothers in my Lodge to please help me at least get some part-time work... I've helped them out a lot, always willing to help with degree work, or personal endeavors if they allow me to and donated more money than I had. I have a very peculiar view of Freemasonry that both has and hasn't proven true to me so I'm sort of on the fence...
The brothers of my Lodge seem much more content gossiping about my problems rather than even asking me if I'm okay or assuring me that they'll reach out for some type of availabile work.... I can't even pay for the classes I'm in now!
Is it be a use one of the past masters of my Lodge spat on the Quran when I brought my close Muslim friend to join? The PM already ruined my friends first degree.. We spoke about it and all was forgiven.. They (and the other witnessing Brothers) even said that they'd deny it even happened if I tried to bring it to Grand Lodge and stated that I must have my own Islamic agenda (I'm not a Muslim, although I am Pakistani). When the JW of our lodge said he would deny that and make claims of me having some sick twisted agenda I let it go.
Visiting other states I have received much light and love from brothers that truly gave me a glimpse of what Freemasonry could be.. I mean it was AMAZING the things strangers but brothers have done for me in time of inconvenience.. Humbling and beautiful. But my mother lodge? I don't get it...
The brothers of my Lodge seem much more content gossiping about my problems rather than even asking me if I'm okay or assuring me that they'll reach out for some type of availabile work.... I can't even pay for the classes I'm in now!
Is it be a use one of the past masters of my Lodge spat on the Quran when I brought my close Muslim friend to join? The PM already ruined my friends first degree.. We spoke about it and all was forgiven.. They (and the other witnessing Brothers) even said that they'd deny it even happened if I tried to bring it to Grand Lodge and stated that I must have my own Islamic agenda (I'm not a Muslim, although I am Pakistani). When the JW of our lodge said he would deny that and make claims of me having some sick twisted agenda I let it go.
Visiting other states I have received much light and love from brothers that truly gave me a glimpse of what Freemasonry could be.. I mean it was AMAZING the things strangers but brothers have done for me in time of inconvenience.. Humbling and beautiful. But my mother lodge? I don't get it...