My father was a freemason in the 50's & 60 and until his death in 2019. He or any other Mason could never give me comfort in the initiation process. I remember as a young man, my mother telling me
that my father came home (black man), white as a ghost, sweating and looked like he was scared to death and could not speak of what happened. My entire life so far i have always wanted to be part of
the brother hood but because of my fears and anxieties i never joined. I am now 60 and never have been part of any brother hood. I am alone and really have not much family left. Mother, father and
one son is gone from this earth. over the years i have heard stories like being locked in a coffin from being left alone with deceased people and these things have scared the beJesus out of me. I have my
fathers Mason paraphernalia in a box tapped shut and refuse to open it again, until i am worthy of doing so. I also have other family members and friends who are also freemasons.
I really petrified but i truly need brotherhood in my life and just need some peace and clarity to just not be afraid..
that my father came home (black man), white as a ghost, sweating and looked like he was scared to death and could not speak of what happened. My entire life so far i have always wanted to be part of
the brother hood but because of my fears and anxieties i never joined. I am now 60 and never have been part of any brother hood. I am alone and really have not much family left. Mother, father and
one son is gone from this earth. over the years i have heard stories like being locked in a coffin from being left alone with deceased people and these things have scared the beJesus out of me. I have my
fathers Mason paraphernalia in a box tapped shut and refuse to open it again, until i am worthy of doing so. I also have other family members and friends who are also freemasons.
I really petrified but i truly need brotherhood in my life and just need some peace and clarity to just not be afraid..