Need your prayers

Discussion in 'General Freemasonry Discussion' started by cemab4y, Aug 31, 2015.

  1. cemab4y

    cemab4y Premium Member

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    My brothers, ten (10) years of service in Iraq/Afghanistan have taken a toll on me. I have had two co-workers killed, and a friend lost a hand in combat. I have seen a man explode right in front of me. I have had several close calls, and I have almost been killed several times. Only by luck and the grace of the Supreme Architect, am I still alive.

    I have suffered a severe mental breakdown, and I crawled into bed with a plastic bag, ready to make the final journey.

    Fortunately, the Veterans administration, and the Defense Department is taking mental illness seriously. Each day, twenty (20) veterans of Iraq/Afghanistan commit suicide. This does include civilian contractors who have also crossed over.

    I am getting the help I need to recover, and to control the depression, which is gripping me, and has done so for the last 20 years.

    Imagine living with a growling, snarling beast, that can destroy you in ten seconds. The beast is temporarily controlled with drugs, but the drugs can fail.

    I am at a Veteran’s Affairs facility in Maryland, trying to make the journey back to mental health. I often have severe crying spells, and I have to be sedated.

    Please keep Larisa and me in your prayers.

    Freedom is not free. We each pay for the privilege in different ways.

    Charles E. Martin
    Perry Point Maryland
     
  2. BroBook

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    My prayers are with my BROTHER, May one day mankind again dwell in unity, realizing that THE GAOTU Can see us, and if we want our children to have eternal life we must teach them in their ( pre- youth) one day there will be PEACE!!!
     
  3. Erickson Ybarra

    Erickson Ybarra Registered User

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    I really don't know what to say but I want you to know I'm with you brother.
     
  4. Ripcord22A

    Ripcord22A Site Benefactor

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    What branch did you serve with? You had 10 yrs worth of deployments? That's crazy! Ive know career rangers that never gotta much time. Prayers for your recovery!
     
  5. MarkR

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    He was a civilian contractor.
     
  6. dfreybur

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    Every one of those I have met so far (state side only, my hitch was very long ago) was prior military. Go back long enough ago and they were in other theaters and tended to use the word mercenary for themselves. In the 1970s I remember encountering an old timer WWII pilot who still took flying gigs in Angola.
     
  7. cemab4y

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    I was on active duty from 1973-1978 US Air Force. I was proud to serve as a civilian from 2004-2015
     
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  8. Ripcord22A

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    What type of contractor?
     
  9. MarkR

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    I've known contractors, particularly in training of law enforcement, who never served in the military, but I knew that Brother Martin had. I was just responding to the question about serving in-theater for such an extended period of time.
     
  10. Warrior1256

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    You will most certainly get prayers from me brother.
     
  11. HumbleTXMason

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    @cemab4y

    you are in my prayers, brother
     
  12. dfreybur

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    More prayers.
     
  13. nixxon2000

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    Prayers sent to you
     
  14. ej6267

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    Hang in there, my brother, keep up with the therapy. Better days will come. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
     
  15. STETSON

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    I will light a St Jude candle for you and Larisa...May God and all your Brothers support you in any way..
     
  16. Keith D. McKeever Jr.

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    You and your family are definitely in my prayers! I know what you are going thru and I'm here to tell you that you have to stay strong!...I know it's easily said than done but you to continue to put one foot in front of the other and continue to keep pushing Brother!
     
  17. Glen Cook

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    You were in my prayers just now. Can I suggest that while not trained, we're are here as listening, caring, individuals who can ease the burden and give a reason not to find the black hole attractive. FaceTime is free
     
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  18. Akiles

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    You're in my prayers


    Saludos.
     
  19. JamestheJust

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    Hi Charles

    In my view there are more effective means than either drugs or "the talking cure" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talking_cure

    But the better cures require a therapist that can speak directly to your "symbolic" snarling beast. The cures commonly take a large amount of effort from both human parties and may require some years. On the other hand, these problems if not dealt with, normally appear in the following lives - regardless of current belief systems, until resolved or grown past.

    It may take some time to discover a competent, willing and available therapist. You could start your search in the practitioners of spirit releasement therapy, bioenergetics, neo-Reichian, and logotherapy. Your search for a cure will take you deeply into the work of the FC.

    May the Light shine on you, but not so much as to cause dark shadows!
     
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  20. cemab4y

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    I am on the road to recovery. If anyone is interested in the kind of work I have been doing in Iraq/Afghanistan/Kuwait, please see my blog

    http://www.cemab4y.blogspot.com

    I am still in the hospital at Perry Point Maryland. I have reached out to the local lodge here, and the brothers have been terrific. I could not have made the steps here, without their support. Harmony Lodge in Port Deposit MD, has been more than generous. God bless their lodge, and Masons worldwide.
     
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