Brother Ol Kev,
I understand your concern. I respect and understand the obligations of you oath probably more than most people taking two in my youth and six as an adult. However, the personal journey I go on only provides me the insight the founders had at the time of my rituals creation. The paths and lights of insight are different for every organization and the original insight was shared and was once possessed by the one organization I can't belong to. I took obligations to not to disrupt the principle fraternity that gave me our order. Personal enlightenment gets you only so far. If allowed with the same insight, enlightenment, and personal experience you have had as a brother, I can expand and share further the advancement of the craft with those that come behind me. Although I understand in Texas the prospects of sharing in this fraternal knowledge is slim I still peruse the knowledge I am allowed to share in to further myself, my path to the Supreme Architect, and for the development of humankind.
My Freemasonry